Hello MOTHER!
i know you are sitting at home with suki beside you reading this post right now!!!
dont lie!! i know!! hhahaha
it's okay =D
hahahah i know you were shocked that i got drunk 3 times (actually 4 already) before!
but i promise that i wont get addicted =)
okay, this entry is dedicated to you and the whole family!!!
say hi to abang, baby, daddy, suki and cybi!!!
dont miss me!!! mwahhaha.
okay, im going to study now. really.
when have i disappointed you guys? =D
been reading quite a few.. not-so-happy posts.
and they are mainly about relationships.
almost everyone around me is very very extremely troubled by this aspect of their lives.. especially during this period when guys go to NS and their partners go in uni.. or when couples are in different uni.. or getting tired of meeting new people and just wanna get into a relationship with the next closest person.
break ups.. rejections.. disappointments.
feeling alone..
i was quite troubled and still am (a little) by the same thing.. but i kinda got out of it when i saw so many people in it.
i dont really like going with the flow - like when people study, i dont. when people dont study, i do. something like that.. :S
university is harder in terms of academics and emotional burden. academically.. its my fault that i havent been studying. emotionally.. im pretty vulnerable :S im missing my parents more often than i did last year..
to those who are going through break ups, here is a quote from my friend's (jackson's) blog:
Don't expect anything from others. 'cos if you really love them, then don't give them a chance to let you feel abandoned. Let them go. Move on.
it's harsh, but u know u will eventually get over it.. once in a while u may look back and cry over the happy times, cos those are the times that u will forever keep in your heart (: i know i had my fair share of reminiscing the past.. thinking about the times when i felt so lucky and loved. i'd feel sad thinking that it was in the past..
if i were given a chance to go through it again, i wouldnt.
the relationship was tried and tested. forgive and forget so that u wouldnt lose that person who once stood by u and understood you. it's a person whom you mould to understand you. a relationship you may have lost, but a good friend you've earned.
im not really good with words or with comforting people.. this posts is for those who thinks that their love life sux.
i believe everyone will get to marry! 'cos there are enough people to go around.. i hope.
i sure hope im not making the same mistake again.
finally getting some things off my chest..
on a happier note,
i finally bought my tickets to toronto!!! =D finally something to look forward to other than fridays... well, club opera anyone? teehee.
going into my fourth week of school!!!!! and i have not studied alot.. feeling damn guilty. sigh. i need self-control.
and no its not because of the new found activity of drinking and clubbing. i'm getting quite sick of it already... so fast hor? oops.
here is ben xiao jie washing dishes..for the first time when i got here! YES i do wash dishes.. and i do cook at times.. especially at nicole's apartment.
anw, here's some pics of my friends.. =)
my cool dudes from solin - james and zee! though.. zee u are still freaking annoying. dont be too sad huh. BE A GENTLEMAN please! $%#@$#@$#@#%$
this is when... zee kinda lost his.. manliness. LOL. but he is still so pretty.
Cindy!
Jin!
James!
and pictures of my school...
Squirrels!! so freaking cute lar the squirrels here. so fat and squashy, like my suki!
leacock building! (where my physics and biology lectures are held at...)
Lower field where lots of students sit and lie down to look at football games or just to chill..
enjoy the pics!
me am rushing to school!!!
this is quite a pointless post cos its done in 10 minutes while i skype with zixuan -_-
dont u agree that my room is cosy and my apartment is HUGE huh, bestfriend? =D
Note: i need to take a picture with my soul mate/sister/nicest friend - nicole!!!!!
Note 2: to you who checks my blog everyday, good for u that u cut ur hair! jangan nonton bo**p lagi yah! hahahaha
i should be studying right now.
2 weeks have passed here in montreal, though it felt like it was much longer.
'cos i think i have done crazy things that i wouldnt have done so before that.
i'm still a good girl ):
i dont care if u guys believe or not but i know i am -_-
ahaha.
i freaking got drunk 3 times already!!!!!!
but im still safe and sound cos i have friends like nicole, james and ali!
and i am having rashes all over my back now.. my skin is not smooth anymore!! *wails*
i think im allergic to rum. but it's okay! i dont like the taste of it anyway.
im sticking to vodka and ice tea!
anyway.
yesterday i went to eat at a sushi buffet place.. and we ordered hell lot.
why am i even typing this entry?
im just procrastinating.
GROWLLL.
im having serious DMS right now.
everything and anything pisses me of in an instant.
and we just had a false fire alarm just now!!
im at a friend's place cooking dinner right now.. nono. im not the one doing the cooking.
BLAHHHH.
im so sorry to those that i have been MIA-ing from.
im still trying to... i dont know what im trying to.
i might go to toronto during thanksgiving!!! so u people from LONDON, WATERLOO, YORK etc, come downtown toronto to gather okay!!!! GROWL. otherwise i will eat you up.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHH.
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