ADDICTION again.
i got addicted to watching a drama again and when that happens, i practically neglect the world around me. i'll be too absorbed watching the happy "lives" of others and forgetting mine.
and go gaga over the oh-so-handsome taiwan male lead actors. ): speaking of which, i got cheated!! i went to taipei, taiwan.... and noooooooo the guys are nothing like the ones in the dramas. sigh
ah.. there goes my computer making the warning sounds saying that it has ran out of memory to run any programs. yes it may be an old and lousy laptop, but it had to suffer me watching a whole day of drama! 15 episodes and counting...
3am. dramas always make me sleep at weird times!
i realli dont like what i am right now.. i dont do housework, i dont feed suki, i dont water the plants.. oh man. luckily youtube has only 15 out of 22 of the episodes.. im taking a break now before the person uploads the next episode!
after ranting so much, i have yet to say the drama which im watching - it's 命中注定我愛你
***below may contain spoilers
the drama is about a guy who accidentally slept with another girl (how they can accidentally do that, you have to watch the drama yourself lar!) when the guy already has a girlfriend whom he is attached to for 2 years. he amazingly got her pregnant on the first try and the story starts about how he is torn between 2 women.. basically it is about a guy who gets romantically involved with 2 girls.
it sounds all too familiar to me..
anyway, this drama is really very nice such that the plot is quite twisted. usually taiwan drama's plot are soooo predictable and so.. silly that i will hit myself in the head while laughing and wondering - why the hell am i watching this.. but i still continue watching anyway.
oooohhh and ethan ruan is HOT.
i'm burnt
my friend chuk showed me something interesting:
Every person is invited to write a message addressed to the future inhabitants — the deadline is December 31, 2008. Messages can be keyed-in on the web, or sent by postal mail. The organizers encourage everybody to gather messages from children, senior citizens and the illiterate so that every culture and demographic on Earth is represented. The satellite has enough capacity to carry a four-page message from each of the more than six billion inhabitants on the planet. Once the satellite is launched, the messages with personal names removed will be made freely available on the web.
KEO will also carry a diamond that encases a drop of human blood and samples of air, sea water and earth. The DNA of the human genome will be engraved on one of the faces. The satellite will also carry an astronomical clock that shows current rotation rates of several pulsars; photographs of people of all cultures; and "the contemporary Library of Alexandria", an encyclopaedic compendium of current human knowledge.
go check out the detailed project and leave your message at KEO
50,000 years later the satellite will fall back to earth in a grand manner.. i'll be so dead and deep underground by then.
what are u peeps going to write?? i'm still thinking about mine.. write about my life? it isnt very interesting.. that makes me wonder what will happen to my blog 50,000 years down the road.. i think i'll include.. "i'm sorry but i hope that we have not left a disastrous and damaged Earth. If possible please clone me and let me live to see the new world, i promise to be bettr this time. (:"
woooooah.
i was visiting my own blog and i realised how emo i was when i typed the previous entry. and to realise this.. means life is starting to look up! =D
helloooo singapore. although i have had this feeling quite a few times whenever i touch down and take the cab home. i just got back from my taiwan trip! =D one down.. 2 more to go. not going japan anymore cos my friend is free to put up with me ):
i finally got my Certificate of attendance for Quebec (CAQ) which is some extra thing that only my province in canada needs before i can do my study permit! now that i have gotten it.. i feel very happy.
i think those who are reading my blog will get sick with this.. but...mcgill mcgill mcgill
all i can think about to get the evil thoughts out of my head! mcgill.
i'll type an entry on my trip after i settle some documents for my study permit! =D
Purest of pain -Son by Four
But I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live without you
And maybe someone else is standing there beside you
But there's something baby that you need to know
That deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking
Vida, give me back my fantasies
The courage that I need to live
The air that I breathe
Carino mio, my world's become so empty
My days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain
I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
That I didn't hurt when you walked away
But to tell you the truth I can't find my way
And deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back my fantasies
The courage that I need to live
The air that I breathe
I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
But I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender just to hear your voice
this is a super old song but..
this song is for you.
tomorrow.. i shall embark on my journey to.. move on.
taaaaiwan! any special orders?
YESSSSSSSSSSS. i finally can salvage my holidays, and my life.
i passed my ontario literacy test! i know most of you dont know what is it or how important it is to me.. it is a super easy test that i should not fail but because of my invigilator's mistake of giving us 30 minutes less than the designated time, i didnt do 2 main sections but i passed. and all we need is a pass not a good grade, we dont even know our marks!
anyway, after knowing that i passed on monday midnight, i went down to the travel agency the very next day. to do what? to book 2 flights!!!
21 june (this saturday!!) to 26 june i am going taiwan with kim min and wensi.
14 july to 18 july i am going to hong kong with xinying!
both are free and easy trip and i caaaant waaaait. i havent packed my bag though. and between those trips, i am going back to indo from 2nd july to 12th july and qianzhi and yanrong may join me and we can explore indo tgt =DD
and after hong kong im hoping to go japan, but it's not confirmed yet. many complications involved.
and finally i hope to go to bintan at the end of july.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee =DDD
i sound so exhilerated dont i?
happy things aside,
ARRGHH. i got my university residence posting yesterday! i got into solin hall single room. it was my third choice! im just sad that i didnt get my first choice.
here's a pic of my future residence:
i am trying to convince myself how happy i and satisfied i should be. although solin is one of the farthest residence.. i get to live in an apartment style! i get to have my own private bathroom again and i have my own living room, and kitchen but i dont cook... i hope that i can still make lots of nice friends behind these closed doors, cos we dont have like common bathrooms or dining rooms to interact.
here's the living room and the kitchen:
well.. on the brighter side.. having a private bathroom isnt all that bad and i have space for friends to sleepover! as for the apartment-mate i will be getting.. -cross my fingers-
okay enough of the future. some things i have been doing..
i celebrated the birthday of one of my buddies - wensi!
happy birthday to u again =)))
no matter what happens, u know u got us to look for! even to help pack ur room -_- please keep it neat!!!
and then i had a 4K outing and we went to eat at Sakura restaurant at orchard. omgggg. it was such a nice buffet place that is well hidden -_- i wanna go back there again, anybody?? hahaha. but i must be mentally prepared to eat alot and make my money worth!
last but not least.. i realised that there are quite a handful of people... who when at canada, missed their hometown so much. and when they are back.. they wished that they hadnt left canada. i can relate to that.
it's not that sg is bad.. but things in my life have changed.. and the things i was expecting for in sg.. well. it just didnt turn out as expected. i've been hanging out with my best buds alot lately.
i cant wait to go university though. realli realli cant wait.
and on a random note, there are crowns on the mcgill logo afterall! and the whole thing looks so similar to.. acjc
mcgill mcgill mcgill fastforward >>>>> [august]
so.. i had this conversation from one of my good friends in CIC.
(st) Iciust Sebastian says:
I saw you in my dream!!!
(st) Iciust Sebastian says:
lol
(st) Iciust Sebastian says:
Just now
(st) Iciust Sebastian says:
haha
[ju]lizaaa says:
LOL
[ju]lizaaa says:
what stupid thing did i do now
[ju]lizaaa says:
say lame jokes?
(st) Iciust Sebastian says:
nah
(st) Iciust Sebastian says:
u're raping someone
this is the impression i left on my fellow schoolmates????
hahaha. sebastian is just being an ass like he usually is.
but still a great crappy fren of mine! i am sorry that i cant go on the holiday with u people. do consider coming to montreal instead okie!! for me!
mwahaha.
sometimes it's so hard to just ask.. cos u are afraid to know the answer.
had a sleepover with kim min and wensi yesterday. didnt realli do much catching up cos we were catching gossip girls until 4am++?!
i have been staying at home today and yesterday and i find it quite peaceful. it's nice to spend more time with suki.
many of u wont understand but suki is more than just a dog to me. she isnt even a properly trained dog in the first place. she lives by her own rules in this house and she is very loyal to our family. =)
she's one of the main pulling factor for me to singapore because i havent seen her for a year and she cant even talk to me on the phone like my family members.
geesh. and the next time im gone, it will be 4 years.
i'm going for dancing lessons later with kim min and wensi. i hope i dont embarass myself!
i dont know what i want, do you know what i want?
ive been meaning to blog for so many times but my macbook's wireless connection is so weak and my new mini laptop is soo.. mini.
getting used to it though so im using the mini laptop.
nearly 3 weeks since i left canada.
im missing that place already and i am definitely going back! =]
in mid-aug..
for now, im settling fine in singapore!
most of my friends are busy working while im... playing with suki at home.
i have gone back to indo for a week, met up with my good friends and canadian buddies and... spent time with him! he's back in canada though and it will be 2 months or more before we meet up again.
my mom has so little faith in me that i am starting to doubt myself..
noooo. i must persist!
i shall keep myself busy in this 2 months, but before that i need to know whether i will pass my literacy test or not.
if i dont i have to go back canada, which is not realli a bad thing n i have some frns there cursing me to fail so that i can fly back -.-
BUT I WAN MY HOLIDAYS!!
i am going to practise ping pong tmr! =DD cant wait cant wait.
ive been thinking alot these past few days.. but whenever i start to blog, my mind goes blank.
okay this is random.
when i went back to jakarta..
i realised that i have grown alot physically and mentally.
physically.. im taller and my appearance have changed of course! this compared to the grown up little kids that i used to play with just across the street.. or the little punks i used to ride bikes with and shoot poor little grasshoppers. the girls look prettier n becoming more ladylike while the boys are reducing horizontally and have taken the habit to keep their moustache.
mentally.. my priorities in life have shifted from wanting things from my parents all the time to taking the time to learn what my father is doing to keep this family going and sit down to understand my parents. and it is during these periods of time that i noticed the increasing amount of white hair my parents have... and realised that they are growing old.
i'm going to enter my last teen year soon! and it will significantly be marked by me entering university..
think abt it.. from 0 year to 10 year old.. what can u remember?? i vaguely remember myself going through primary school.. dreading chinese lessons and somehow got into EM1.
then 11 year old comes along.. the year before PSLE.
that's when the life-changing secondary school years where u make lifelong true friends who dont look at u for money. and JC years when everyone work their ass off to determine their future.
i have changed so much during this teen years.
in my twenties, university will be my life and it's the last chance where i can really enjoy in the company of my frens.
i cant wait for aug when university starts.
i cant wait to further mature and learn that there is more to life! =D
it feels weird not to study and slack for too long. i cant wait to learn more about my favourite subject - chemistry and i cant wait to obtain skills to help other people in the society.
hahaha. im not trying to sound noble and all that. but i cant stand the idea of business and working just for money. maybe i can say these because i am living in a very comfortable life..
im quite a hypocrite though. as much as i wish to help those unfortunate ones, i wouldnt be able to give up the life i have now either.
so the thing i can do now is to take advantage of my ability to study and help others nextt time! whether in the biochemical research field or medicine..
i suddenly have this urge to take medicine next time. but what if its too hard?? and i still havent gotten over my own fear of gory images of humans.
when i was in jakarta.. i saw those poor people sell random food in the middle of roads or begging under the hot sun. i know i cant possible consume the food they sell cos my stomach wont be able to take it.
i suggested to my parents that we can buy food from these roadside people and then give it to the beggers instead of giving small amounts of money which may not even be enough for food..
but my father said "wait till u become the president then u do, even the president cant solve the problem"
sigh. my father isnt heartless.. he is so kind that he got cheated so many times cos he just lend money to those in need. but he's practical.
i'll just find other ways to help then.