hoooooow-day!
guess what guess what?
i typing this entry with my baby, SUKI! omg. i miss her so much. hahaha. PRETTIEST DOG ON EARTH OKAY!
if u ignore the messy hair on her body that is, just look at her face.=)
luckily she still remembers me =D
and yes, if u havent guessed already..
i was planning to surprise some people, but my tagboard has given me away.
I AM BACK IN SINGAPOREEEEE.
first things first, OMGOMGOMG. the weather is SO HOT. finally i can use my shades =D but i am putting sunblock on otherwise the sun was burning into me.
and i ate my grandma's beef rendang, DELICIOUS.
anyway i wont be calling anyone one out till the next month, cos..
I AM FLYING TO INDO TODAY.
and i will have no internet again.. so i will go MIA till 30 May.
and when im back, we start going out!
cos i can imagine how bored i would be.
i'm looking for activities to do. currently looking into cooking and dance classes, but the class schedule keep clashing with the dates that i will be flying off again to indo in july!
and i will probably go to japan in june to look for a friend and to taiwan in july with my 3 best buds.
the good thing is i can travel.
the bad thing, is i dont know what to occupy myself with every other day.
i cant
i need some activities to make me go out.
its okay! i love the sun!
ACTIVITIES! suggestions!
anyway,i am kinda irritated generally by singaporeans. hmm. hahaha. im not being snobbish! i still love my friends =D
please forgive me if i keep pinpointing singapore these few days.
and i hope i wont become as impatient. sheeeesh.
i used to think that PMS was a really a woman's excuse to just throw her temper at her partner.
but as i grow older.
i realised that PMS do exist.
yesterday i think i suffered my my worst one ever in canada.
and i think i hurt some people along the way, which i can only say sorry to.
my previous 2 entries were typed when i was super... angry. =x
i know it sounds stupid but i am not angry now.
yesterday, i was overwhelmed with anger and sadness, and i just
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usually PMS is when i have to fight this sudden growing feeling of hate or sadness which i dont usually feel. BOO.
as i get older it seems to get a bit worse.
HMMMMM.
hormonal imbalance. maybe i am still going through puberty and will grow taller =D
assholes of the world unite.
PLEASE can u go join them?
YOU YOU and no else but YOU.
i am so sorry but i really have to use the word.
i am fcking pissed this time.
of your insensitive behaviour.
WHY AM I PUTTING UP WITH THIS!!
JULIZA U ARE ONE HELL OF A STUPID GIRL.
biology exam was over.
the questions were harder than i expected...but what's done is done. =D i wont see biology anymoreeeeee. okie i forgot about uni. i dont reali hate bio lar.
i am feeling all relaxed already, cos bio is my hardest subject. =DD
so anyway, i am here to blog about my uni. i think its safe to blog about it now that most people have gotten offers and i have made my decision. =D
i applied to the following unis :
1. University of Toronto, St George campus (biochemistry)
2. Queen's University (biochemistry) - offer with 9K entrance scholarship
3. Waterloo university (biochemistry co-op) - offer for co-op
4. University of Toronto, Missisauga campus (forensic science) - offer
5. McGill university (biochemistry) - offer
only after the deadline for the university has passed and people starting to get offers in early apriland i havent even gotten one that i got worried about my choices. i was
that period of time was anxiety to the peak for me.
and the offers started coming in during late april if i am not wrong. starting with missisauga, queen's, waterloo then mcgill. UT st george hates me. x_X
as queen's was the second to offer me plus with so much money, i was so tempted to go there! i was practically decided on going there. i was waiting for mcgill's offer first so that i could prove to my parents that at least i got the mcgill's offer.
queen's.. i like the school spirit, i like the surroundings. i love the crowns.!
hahaha. sadly, queen's is only recognized as the 3rd in canada, and not known internationally.
so.. when i got my mcgill offer, my parents were practically pushing me to go there. i was trying to convince them to let me go queen's but they didnt even have any reaction to my scholarship! 9k! thats like one of the most entrance scholarship any uni can give here, and it covers more than half of my tution fee!
they still wanted me to go mcgill.
so with that little temptation in me... who wouldnt be tempted to go into the top school...
i accepted the offer.
to put my parent's minds at ease and to avoid any future frustrations of "should i go...? or not..?"
so yea, McGill here i come!
at least i will be among smart people who knows how to have fun.
i was seriously disturbed by some people during exam period.. hahaha. it just scares me... i've had the phobia since young i think and i always escape to do crazy things during exam period like working or buying gadgets.
guess what!
McGill is known for its partying environment ( it is situated in Montreal).. that it is the only Canadian uni to be in Playboy's top partying unis!
ouch.
hahaha. im not against people who party, i just dont like the activity itself.
im boring boring boring. i know
so...
can friends in singapore who parties, BRING ME TO A CLUB AT LEAST ONCE PLEASE.
or maybe, i can go into on a crazy outing with my crazy friends... TO A CLUB! =DD
so excited so excited.
not.
Hello! guess what! it is the 2nd last day of school before final exam week! How the school works here is that after we are done with final exams, we are done with school. We need not go back to receive our marked exam papers or check them. I just have to check my final marks on the internet or if i am still in Canada, i can check my final results in school.
so.. i handed in my last project for this semester and ultimately for my life in CIC. =D relieved. =D today is probably my free-est day but i did nothing special, just went home to sleep.
i was planning to do some other things, but...
oh well, there goes my free day.
i think i have to start studying a bit for my biology tmr. here is my exam schedule:
monday - biology
wednesday - calculus
friday - computer science
so basically.. once im done with monday, i am fine =DD
i am even going toronto to shop with juliet!
i have yet to start packing my room. i dont know where to start!
i am feeling so freaking lazy these days.
maybe i am too tired to do things that people dont appreciate.
it's quite interesting to see how much we used to be more eager to do things for each other, until recently, we have learnt the art of not to care.
maybe i am asking too much. -shrugs-
well, i have to accept our cultural differences i guess.
speaking of which, one thing that CIC has taught me is to learn to tolerate cultural differences. and the cultural differences here are an eye-opener.
next time if i were to travel around the world, i will have people to visit in those countries! but then again... there are alot of them i will never get to meet again after graduation.
i took some pictures of my school today..
my computer science class where most of u often see me online during 9pm to 10pm singapore time. hahaha. the course is quite slack but i think that computer programming is quite interesting but it is not my thing. but now i feel that people who creates are super pro!
the right side of my biology class. ms klodt is one of the 2 teachers who taught me 2 consecutive semesters. we talk quite alot in her lesson and she is always excited about school activities! hahah
and here is my row of people in biology class. probably the most noisiest row with me, sachin and oliver scoring the most points in talking. mwahaha.
see the part where sara, robert and cicong are standing at? that is where my locker is! the place where i stored my winter jacket, heavy books.. =D the lockers are long and "slim", as compared to the short "boxes" of lockers in singapore.
this is one of our 2 study rooms. the quieter one and the one i mostly hang out at during my period 4 break when everyone else has lessons. i will usually be doing last minute calculus homework or chatting with the teachers in the room.
one of our two eating places - the cafeteria. the food is known to be bad, but no one has the time to rush out and grab their lunch in the 1hr 15 min break. so u see us people queuing up to eat in the back of the picture!
these are the act-shy malayisan guys eating. -_-
the indonesians eating, gabby's face looks funny! =x i hope she doesnt kill me..
last but not least, my last period maths class! mr shaw is the funniest and most critical teacher this semester! hahaha. he has also taught me for 2 consecutive semesters - for functions and calculus. =D
so.. tada! that is some parts of my school. i will be taking some more pictures tmr on the last day! i'll probably put up some more pictures (:
okay, now i am going back to chat with my littler brother about who should use my singapore handphone line to upgrade and get a new handphone! GROWL. that little devil dont let me talk to my mom on msn.
i am chatting with yanrong now and i realised that i havent made something clear!
me have not graduated yet! hahaha. i know i had my prom already, but my school have prom before we graduate because... we are international students. the moment we are done with our final exams, everyone is shooting off to their motherlands.
like me. not on purpose though. i wanted to stay longer =(
i'm feeling at ease and ecstatic now =DD i'll tell u guys whyyyy im so happy in one of the next entry okie! although some of my close friends already know why. mwahahah. i'm still waiting for one more!
BOO. someone is bugging me to faster finish blogging.
okie~ TATA! im going to the library! surprise surprise.
apology accepted.
and i apologize for being irritating and annoying at times, which i am sure is more than once.
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on a happier note,
okay, change that - on a lighter note,
AP CALCULUS is killing my brain cells.
it's not the things that im learning that is killing me. i understand the subject BUT! the questions! lolx. the switch in level of difficulty is quite sudden to me.
and i think i am seriously going to die during uni.
i never fail to leave studying to the very last minute. regardless of the importance of the exams.. PSLE.. O level.. final exams.. those were the killer periods but i managed to pull through somehow.
but i know that it is a bad habit that will pull me down in uni.
i've been sleeping early to get rid of my habit of sleeping too late and then sleeping in class. but i think the habit will return again once i go back to SG! and getting addicted to dramas. i already have this list of dramas i wanna watch in my head.
and now, i cant even sit down and patiently do the practise questions for AP. cos i never really had the experience of doing practise question on my own. i only did TYS cos my teacher made us hand in our work.
but im going to change!! hahaha. TRYING. give me time. i finished 2 sets of multiple questions and im very proud of myself already. TESSA! u have to be proud of ur ex-roommate who managed to do practise questions from 7pm to 9pm without any distractions! most importantly, without giving in to my bed.
but AP exam is next wednesday!
i want to get a 5. i want to get a 5. (5 is the best grade, 1 is the worst.)
i dont remember ever wanting a good grade so much that i will work hard for it!
i hope i dont disappoint myself.
if i do, i think i will never work hard again.
actually, i just want to experience what it is like to take A levels and working hard for something.
i am.. in fact, quite pathetic huh.
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upon reading my own entry,
i realise that i tried studying hard before. but it is always for a day, when i would study hard for a topic, write out notes, and study real hard. though i always choose to study from the beginning so the first topic is actually, not that important - like significant digits! kill me. then i just lose steam and then i lose track of my studies.
How does it feel like to be accused for something you are obviously not?
it sucks
i could survive the first round. but i had enough with the
"kenapa peduli orang itu bilang apa?"
i care, because its my friend.
if some stranger or acquaintance or enemy does it.. i'll get angry but it wouldnt affect me in any serious way. other than i will just glare at the person every other time. much less would i tolerate any of it.
i told you u everything till the day i found out abt it.
i dont even know what sparked it, cos i thought everything was okay between us.
the only time i could think of was during the moody period of time when i had a 3 day timeout with him. that was from 29 march. my face was probably black and i probably looked super glum. i didnt tell anyone about it, cos i felt that it was my own mistake that i had to handle it on my own.
well now here i am saying it publicly cos i just had to get things straight.
living in such close proximities, anyone would be influenced by each others actions. u probably wouldnt notice, but you have adopted some of my habits and likings as well.
and if you asked most of the people around us, we are still very distinctively different.
and when i do ask to be alike, my perception of being alike is similar to twins who are most of the time best friends. i treated you as one whom i can confide in, but i dont think im that person to you.
i have no wish to be like u. i am happy, in fact very happy to be the way i am. just look at how our desks and living space are decorated and organized. it reflects how different our likings are.
even after living with roommates who likes this particular cartoon alot, i.. still cant bring myself to like it. i am not even remotely interested in watching the cartoons. till now i am only very sure of 2 names from the cartoon. yeah, im pathetic.
that is the very mild example. but i dont want to go into those serious ones lest i get emotional.
but i have to say this : i was planning to use my prom gown from the day i stepped into CIC.
i've tried my best to put this across to you as nicely as i can, using the same medium as you.
i'm sorry if it did hurt you in any way, but i am sure the damage wasnt as bad..
as i click on the "publish post".. this entry will probably change things between us alot.
2 more weeks... if relationships cant be sustained beyond graduation, i thought our friendship could.