Tuesday, January 02, 2007 @1/02/2007 02:12:00 AM
HAPPY NEW YEAR!! and happy birthday to my doggie,
Suki. =)
My not so darling little dog have turned 1+ year-old. Well, I hope she will grow up
mentally and stop biting me and chewing things up. My newly bought heels was disfigured by her =( my mom threatens never to buy things for me again.
Yea right.
I promised myself in India that I will start finding solo times every week. Well, I guess I missed out one 1 since I was back from India about 2 weeks ago? Solo time is a time when we detach ourselves from the surroundings for awhile
(by getting away from homework, friends, family,… everything) to reflect on what has happened and what I do I want from life? Have I done anything wrongly? How can I change myself or the situation? Basically, it is like renewing ourselves after a hectic day. We like to do the same things everyday and stick to a routine we’re comfortable with even when we are committing mistakes, we never stop doing it because we never stop to think about how to change for the better. And why not? Cause we’re lazy and it seems so tiring as compared to what we usually do.
I’ve been that
lazy girl this whole year. I haven’t been doing homework diligently like I told myself to after I was out of vjc, instead I have been doing the bare minimum. Like, if the teacher seriously wants it, I’ll.. have to do it? Studies aside, I haven’t been very happy this year, because I made myself not to be. Mainly cause of my school. Well, I wouldn’t say I hate acjc now, but I am still not able to declare “
I LOVE ACJC”
nah-ah.
My Overseas CIP trip to china made me realize that.. There are actually students who do not have noses up in the air
(by being SOO against Chinese, hey if you wanna be ang moh, splash red paint on yourself) and really care about the welfare of the less fortunate.
This 18 people who went made me saw AC in another light. I thoroughly enjoyed being in their company for 13 days and I’m glad I contributed much to everyone’s laughter! =P and for once in my days in AC, I actually did an AC cheer wholeheartedly =) on top of a mountain in China! There we did some thought provoking sessions which really provoked my thoughts but not my actions, yet. For example, appreciating our
SMALL little country (which cuts down a lot of traveling time), proper sanitation (toilets with doors!).. I’m starting to take things for granted again.. like why is my basin choking up again!?
As for my outward bound to the Himalayans, it was
tough. But I never knew I could do so many things, like climbing up 1600m high mountain and trekking 18 km in a day? I wouldn’t even walk up mount faber on my own. I was one of the weaker person mentally and physically. There were so many times when I really want to give up and kept thinking why I am I even on this trip?! And most of time I was one of few at the back. I really couldn’t take it but i was pushed to my limits. I kept wishing that I was back at home and did the most torturous thing there –
doing homework. But now looking at the pile of homework I’m left with, I’m wishing that I’m on the mountains! Well, it was just walking?
Not. I’m just trying to escape from whatever that seems difficult and tedious to do at the moment, that’s human nature for you.
I’ll write about China and India in details next time =)
As for now, I’m detaching myself from the world… -_- actually just my homework cause I’m still on msn. It takes practise.
I’m going to live through 2007
happily!!! Really. It has been very tiring to be sad and angry all the time. And I will make reasonable targets and promises that I will fulfil! =)
I will do my best as an ACsian, a captain, a CO member, a daughter, a sister and as a friend. I haven’t been giving my full attention to people around me and I’m going to start doing that and stop spacing out whenever I hear people talk. =X
Last year I couldn’t be bothered to type about the new year cause I didn’t see what I could change about myself. 31 Dec 2005 and 1 Jan 2006 was nothing but a second away.
This year, I spent that second with him. Haven’t been acknowledging him much on this blog but he has been there for me no matter what these past 9 months. Although I was busy ogling at “L” in the death note marathon movies,
I haven’t stopped ogling at you =PWell, I promised myself to complete my holiday homework, time to return to reality.
Maths is making me sleepy =(