Monday, July 10, 2006
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juliza ranted @7/10/2006 02:31:00 AM;
i've been busy with packing my stuffs at my old house and bringing them over to my new house and then unpacking them. whew.
yupp =)) i'm going to officially settle down in my house. it's nice to have my own room and privacy. although my frens usually ask wont my brothers feel angry or sad or jealous etc cos they have to share a small pathetic room?
well, cant help it. i'm the only daughter my parents have =P so they gotta live with it.
recently, i just got myself a pocket pc. yes yes. a new gadget as alwaes. but that doesnt mean im rich. its just that.. i like to shop for gadgets, makes me feel happy. i rarely or hard to find any joy in shopping for clothes or accesories like a girl. i seriously dun think im rich. argh. my poor dad =/
terms just ended. haix. during terms i was still quite confident i will pass most of my subjects fairly well.. but everyone's been saying that they will be very happy as long as they pass.. "failing terms is a norm.." wth. i feel awkward hearing them.. am i being over confident? but why shld i lament abt my results when i realli think i might do not so badly? my i will do badly.. but must be confident! lacking of it recently..
haix. where are frens when u need them? i cant realli blame my ac frens for not being there for me.. cos they seldom see the lively and happy me.. i miss the times in vj where ppl pat my back when im down and write notes on paper and even orange to cheer me up.. but in ac being quiet and looking seriously seems like a norm for me now..
i noe i've a person to fall back on.. im lucky to noe him =) but he's taking all the shit and crap from me all by himself. sometimes i wish i can just have a fren to talk to.. it's been a long time since i did. but all my close frens seem to be very busy with their commitments..
indeed i've made 4 good frens in ac... but. we've merely been there for each other for the fun times. which is good and bad at the same time.. we go to each other in sch for accompaniment.. afraid of wandering alone in school.. but we arent those type who will tell each other our problems.
i just dont feel that im part of anything in ac. table tennis.. its so not united.. and hard to get ppl to go and train. co.. makes me feel happy to hear music.. but its not a cca im very excited to go to.. like not very bonded.. it's so hard to even have a sectional lunch.
i just have this warp mindset about things. that makes me feel weird sometimes.. so i dun realli speak up.
but i used to.
im not the smartest nor the prettiest. but im fine with it =) cos.. i just do.
i cant lie to myself. i still feel very heavy hearted. deep down inside..
juliza ranted @7/10/2006 01:04:00 AM;