Friday, April 14, 2006 @4/14/2006 11:17:00 PM
actually my title sounds so.. comical. cos it makes u think of the movie with jackie chan in it.
but no. i do not have dementia though i'm feeling very old now.
i find myself very very extremely quiet in school these days. im no longer that crazy ju.
cause im not even known as ju in ac. but ariliany. wth -_- does ju sound too chinese?
i feel that i've turned mean. not bitchy but a bit mean.
it's the ac effect u noe.
like when teachers like scold u shameless (not at me lar) or when teachers say "i feel like slapping u for no apparent reason" ( yet again not at me) , all this in front of the whole lecture theatre.
those arent the worse. there's so many much worse ones and moderate ones. suddenly it's so common and everywhere.
they dont scold by shouting at u, but by being sarcastic, hurting ur ego.
make u feel belittled.
the power of words...
that's why when i was hanging out w some victorians ppl again, i tried not to open my mouth.. im not very tactful.
ironically, i nominated myself for student council. it's all about politics i feel.
if anyone who is crucial in deciding whether i go through my interview or not, and reads this blog. out i go.
i wan to join coucil cos.. -speechless-
i realli dunno. just wanna be part of the coucil.
and get criticized by teachers everyday.
lolx. nvm. my brain is very disjointed right now.
im realli not myself.