Organizing my notes into files is like removing the clutter from my mind. Sounds familiar? Picked it out from my english literature book. The dastardly subject that i got B3 in.. haix.
Yah. i feel my mood being uplifted after i see 7 neatly packed files =D i finally am in the mood to study!! however, i realise i label every file with a feeling of uncertainty. Will i bear to use the file next time if i dont stay in vj? How will i feel if i see the vj logo? i've also only written the subject and my name on the files. i didn't write 06S47. i'd rather write 06S47 7 times after this friday rather than cancelling
i'm being super pessismistic arent i?
if i get to stay in vj i'll probably go around hugging everybody and go mad.
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on this beautiful saturday, what have i done? i spent my time travelling to katong to do a check up on my bao bei suki. ^^ sometimes she can really be very ungrateful. vomitted twice!!! arrrrffff. And she didnt get the vaccination she was suppose to get.
oh well. but the day wasn't that bad hur?
thankew =)))
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my mom just slapped my bro. that's his birthday present i guess. hoho.
i'm not a sadist, my bro is strong to withstand that slap one lar. afterall he pushes me around with he ohhh sooo biiig and scary muscles.
happy early bdaeee dear bro.
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wheeee. i may get to compete in bowling not table tennis =) next sunday at mount faber safra! lolx. so near to home =D
hoho. if i get to stay in vj then i think i will be the only senior to visit the juniors for table tennis nationals at chung cheng! =D due to obvious reasons -wiNks- hehehe.
ahh. have i made the right choice? but they are all the same right? so why do i keep inflicting the same pain on myself? hmmm.
simple. cause im dumb! =D
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to perhaps changing school. bahh. feeling so
but everyday go school.. see the school, see the people. sians. im gonna leave soon. makes me feel moody again. but i'm like doing nothing right. i don't want to appeal thru any cca cos i cant gurantee that i will be prominent in either.
bahhh. even eugene has already gone to take the appeal form.. what am i waiting for???
sheesh. i'll stop lamenting! i will go get the appeal form too! soon.
on the brighter side, acjc doesnt seem to be a very bad school.. but i gotta be rich. hmm. mayb i'll go rob some bank or something. and even if i get into nj.. well.. at least i already have many many friends there.
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but my life hasnt been sad all the while these days lar. one of the many happy moments was the bowling interhouse competition. although it's another sports(it's not recognized as one) game that u go up and play alone.. just like table tennis.. but ur team mates are behind u always. literally. =) and so were other bowlers.
conclusion : bowling rox! =D
if i go ac.. will i join bowling? should i? blearh.
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still got other things.. hmmm. i got a new.. friend =D actually its friendS. rachel and maolin. the 2 ultimate lamest classmates. im alwaes alwaes out of breath when im with them. -stabs myself-
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and quite a few happenings in my class ar.. hmmm. that poh zi xuan came back after 2 days in australia -____-" xian qian tai duo le lar he. and we had a small class outing to swensens to eat 5 different types of ice cream!!!
and we went to the zoo. yes the zoo. i dun remember myself ever going to the zoo in the morning. cos i've been to night safari. it wasn't a very pleasant experience for me though cos i hated the sun. i dunno what's wrong lar. shine so brightly for what. wan to melt me issit. then had to do so much walking. $#%$#^. but i amused myself with a lamb and the scandals =)) many many scandals. hahahah. agnes love to take photos alot!
and and. i was only late for 3 minutes that day!!!!! omg. it's like a huge achievement..
hehehex. that's me below carrying the lamb! what weird eyes it had.. scary. at the back is my mortal yong han and zixuan. they have kindly brought mine and agnes' bags.
and here is agnes' pic with the lamb =)) how i envy her. can wear sleeveless.
i found out there was such thing as a JACKASS PENGUIN! lmao.
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it's time i should blog.
quite a few things happened these days :
chingay wasn't bad nor good. well we just performed and i wan to thank the people who participated for the happy times we had during practices and performances. chingay would have been a torture without you guys. especially si ying and li mei=)
although i know alot of people did not see any victorians on TV that day, but don't you feel proud everytime the school was mentioned? cause i did.
o levels...i didn't feel worried before i collected my results. all i hope for was to be able to stay in vj.
i got 10. expected. really i swear i expected this L1R5 but not the grades of some of my subject. A2 for physics? haix. i feel like i've let down mr soh or something.
i regretted not studying hard. i've now seen the effects of studying. i've been
mugging time!
why did i expect the results and still bother entering vj for the first 3 mths? i shouldn't have..
since i would most probably not be able to stay.. i'll miss alot of people.
Aquila06S47.
Inferno/Igmo.
Bowlers.
Ping-pongers.
Senior class.
I've met alot of people.. really nice people. it's not polite to pinpoint.. cause there's so many to name.. i've experienced friendships that are very sincere. friends who will be there when im down. thanks =) especially from my class.
on a happier note, i felt that jts was not bad. =) after much disagreements.. i'm glad that we eventually had one. though i'm sorry to those seniors if i had done anything to get them into trouble. haix.
last but not least...
some of us sent zixuan off yesterday.. he's going to perth for 10 long months. alot of vs boys. lolx.
they are really very united.. *xian mu* haha..
haix. my meimei cum very good fren of my left le. one less person to accompany me to do many things..=/
at least i did my forfeit.. though i think i still owe u something. if it's appropriate next time.. you'll get it =)
and i left the airport at around 12.40am.. (i've been going home around this time lately..hmm.)
since i no longer have anyone who can share a cab with.. good thing my mortal's father was okay with sending me home. thanks alot maurice!
yup. i'm gonna start being organized and studious. =)
maybe you'll get to see me with specs that has degree next time.
-i wish i can change my handphone line-
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i wanted to blog. but people come asking me about O level results. BAH!!!
my parents didn't go watch today. though i gave them the tickets.
what's the point?
apparently there are other things which are more important than their daughter. or maybe they just don't care.
these few days i've been feeling very restricted. my parents are quarrelling so they don't care about anything in the house. my poor dog has some skin problem but i can't bring her to the vet cause my mom don't care. i'm living on my hong bao money already cause my mom don't care.
what is this man. it's not very often we have our whole family staying together for so long. and we just have to quarrel everytime. insensitive. very insensitive of them. the people who get affected are not only themselves but their children too. ME.
i hate this.
on a happier note. chingay was very enchanting today because the floats were very beauutiful. and there were many very nice costumes. unlike ours, so plain orange. i felt like a pumpkin with my oversized orange t-shirt.
after today. i personally don't think i can lead. i just screw up everything lar.
problems at the moment : my family, "you", my dog, jts, o lvl results, chingay, bowling.
my life is being governed by external factors again.
stressed. probably that's why i haven't been eating properly. cause no one cares, like i got no mom. either i'm too full or extremely hungry. like now. i only ate lunch today.
the real chingay is later today [now is 2.37am]. bah. who cares!
haix.
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by right today is chingay parade preview cause it's already past 12 midnight but i'm still living in the past.
i felt super tired today. as if i'm being tied down by something or someone. anything. or maybe my body is starting to function abnormally.
i feel myself being very ignored and lagging behind others by alot and i'm going to have a very hard time catching up.
i keep thinking today.. that what if one day i died. but i don't reincarnate or something and my spirit get stuck at a certain place. i can see the living people but they cannot see me. and everyday... i see them walking by.. past me.. and going on with their normal life. while i can only watch. 1 year.. 10 years.. 100 years.. wouldnt it be so sad?
that's somewhat how i am feeling now.
but it's more complex. i feel that i'm trying to schedule myself to fit others, to live for others. so much things i have to do. keep keeping myself busy busy busy.
i've thought over it. i should slow down and think for myself. what i want to do and live life at my own pace.
cause i'm really very tired.
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it's first feb today! -celebrates-
x-country today wasn't as bad as i contemplated it to be. cos i absolutely hate running.. brings back bad memories =(
>>fast forward
since most of the S47-ians couldn't make or maybe unwilling to make it for jts today evening.. we decided to have lunch with the seniors instead.
aim: to get to know the seniors better.
somehow we lost sight of our aim when we reached bugis.
were we being too unfrenly? or were we just too shy? or have i not tried my best?
i hope we can settle a place for jts soon. i don't know how much longer i can stay in vj. bah.
trust me. the seniors are nice and seniors, we are nice too (:
one other highlight of the day was..
after much imploring..
and pleading..
and persuading..
the big 4..
of vs boys. sorry i dun mean to pinpoint the school, yah, but vs. =x
finally agreed to take neoprints with us!
neoprint members: me, christie, amanda, ning xin, zi xuan, weijie, xin an and yonghan.
here are the scanned results...
but wait. i just wanna say, the neoprint quality sux!
-pats everybody's back-
not bad for the first class neoprint. make that group.
my hand was itchy so i decide to scan some other nicer neoprints of mine.
i love this neoprint alot. the girl is my bestest friend in the whole wide world! lolX. cheers to a decade of friendship ming! =) let's take neoprint again.. just the both of us!
cause this neoprint was like how many million years ago..
and here are my 3 very good friends.
from left to right : wensi, kim min and ming ming!
if you see properly.. all of us wore make up. trying to look pretty together for a day =) i think this was taken on the eve of christmas.. or new year's eve.. oh no. i don't remember.
last but not least.. my good friend throughout my secondary school years.
shatricia =)
haha, she helped deliver my baby rabbits.
never update for so long.. then suddenly got a long post. i feel shuang. =P
what should i do? what to say? when you come back.. haix.
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